As I start 2012 I look forward to my freedom. Freedom comes at a price however. A price I’m willing to pay. I shall be living on a fixed income that’s about one quarter of my previous monthly income (after taxes). I’m ready however to grab the future by the balls.
I’m always saying live in the present because tomorrow is promised to no one. However, lately every morning the alarm clock goes off I can’t help but wish it were 31 Jan 2012. On 31 Jan 2012 I’ll begin another journey and I’m excited to get started. In the mean time I need to stay focused on the task at hand and continue to tow the line.
My retirement from the United States Air Force is closer than expected. My new retirement date is 1 April 2012. I’ll be moving back to the United States to figure out what it is exactly I want to do with the rest of my life. I know for sure that I want to take a year off to rest and travel at leisure.
The world is such a huge place, how can you be sure that you have actually met your soulmate when you haven’t travelled to the far corners of the world?
Go Placidly Amid the Noise and Haste
And remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender
Be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
And listen to others,
Even the dull and ignorant;
They too have their story
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
They are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others
You may become vain and bitter;
For always there will be greater
and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements
As well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career,
However humble; it is a real possession
In the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
For the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to
What virtue there is;
Many persons strive for high ideals;
And everywhere life is full of heroism
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
For in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
It is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
Gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit
To shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are borne
Of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
Be gentle with yourself.
You are a Child of the Universe
No less than the trees and the stars;
You have a right to be here.
And no doubt the Universe
Is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
Whatever you conceive Him to be;
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
In the noisy confusion of life,
Keep peace with your soul.
With all its shame, drudgery and broken dreams,
It is still a beautiful world.
Strive to be happy.
I need great periods of solitude to keep me balanced. Just because I enjoy solitude doesn’t mean I’m lonely or that I’m anti-social. I enjoy other peoples company but I do not need the constant company of others. I believe people tend to misunderstand me because of that and tend to ask “don’t you get lonely?” I find myself having to explain that solitude is different than loneliness, expecially when it’s self imposed solitude that one enjoys.
Solitude: The state of being alone
Loneliness: Affected with, characterized by, or causing a depressing feeling of being alone.
I’m tired of the burearacy and hierarchy in my present career and today I realized that my soul is dying. I really need to get out soon before I’m but a mere shell of a person with no individual thought.