I need to do some kind of consistant exercise if I expect to lose weight and stay fit.
I need to do some kind of consistant exercise if I expect to lose weight and stay fit.
Growing up I heard the phrase “what will people think?” over and over again. I have a hard time getting it out of my head. I really dislike that phrase. I have to make a conscious effort to ignore it and allow my own decisions to control my actions. Let them think whatever the hell they want. They are going to do that anyway. Why should all my actions be based on what people think or will think?
Every single time I have not trusted my instincts I’ve lived to regret it. However, I’ve learned to live beyond regret.
My Trip to Kenya Part 1
I’ve wanted to visit the African Continent for as long as I can remember. I finally did earlier this month for two weeks. Right off the bat I have to say two weeks is not enough. I wanted to visit two countries Kenya and Tanzania. I ended up just visiting Kenya. I’ll visit Tanzania some other time. The country is overwhelming there is a lot to see and travel days took a lot out of me. I only made a small dent in the things I wanted to do because I needed rest days in between and that is the reason I know I need a lot more time if I ever go back.
I purchased a super inexpensive roundtrip airline ticket for $312.00 deparing from Washington DC to Nairobi, Kenya. Since I originally planned to also visit Tanzania I got a yellow fever shot, tetanus booster shot, and typhoid booster shot. I also got malaria prevention medication. My insurance only covered the tetanus shot. These shots and the malaria pills cost more than the airline ticket.
Took an overnight Megabus on 31 May to DC. Arrived 1 June, spent the night and boarded my plane the next day 2 June, at 1730 for my trip to Kenya. The first leg was from DC to Detroit. Second leg Detroit to Amsterdam. Third leg Amsterdam to Nairobi. Met up with my friend and her daughter at the airport in DC. We would spend the first week of the trip together (since they were only there for one week) and I would spend the second week solo.
We arrived in Nairobi the night of 3 June to a downpour. My friend has T-mobile thus she wasn’t roaming and was able to get an Uber to take us to our accommodations. Beautiful accommodations she had secured through AirBnB. We got drenched walking to the taxi. I choose to see it as a welcome shower. After getting out of our wet clothes and settling in for night we were able to laugh about it.
We hit the ground running the next day with a full day’s worth of activities. Again my friend being the great organizer that she is linked up with some other folks who had hired a driver for the day so we joined them and shared the cost. We visited the Nairobi National Park, The Giraffe Center, the Elephant Rescue Center and the Kazuri Bead Factory (the clay beads are individually hand-made by women). At the end of the day it was again Uber to the rescue to get us back to our accommodations.
The following day Friday 5 June, we went out to breakfast at this trendy restaurant in the city. Later that day a Kenyan friend came over to cook us an authentic Kenyan meal. It was simple, filling, and delicious. We talked right through the night. Good food and great company. It was a wonderful day.
I’ve been looking forward to this day since April 2012. Initially I was supposed to go to the African continent for three months and planned on visiting three countries, but life happens and I’ll only be there for two weeks and I’ll only visit two countries but at least I’m going and I’m extremely happy about that.
I got a super cheap airline ticket flying out of Washington DC for $312. I’m taking the Megabus overnight to DC on Sunday and flying out on Tuesday from there with a connecting flight in Amsterdam arriving Kenya 3 June. I’m not taking my laptop and I do not have a tablet therefore I won’t be providing a play by play of my visit. I intend to be present in the moment as opposed to trying to get the best shot of whatever it is I’m a part of at any given moment. When I return I’ll write a blog post about my experience.
Most of my writing lately has been very personal and maybe a little controversial so I’ve kept everything in my journal under wraps. However, I decided to share this piece. I feel like I’m putting myself out there naked by sharing this but somehow I don’t think I’m the only one who feels this way.
Dating and Religion (or the lack thereof)
Dating is hard. In this religion obsessed world we live in, it’s frustrating to be authentic when everyone expects you to be normal. Everyone talks about wanting people to just be themselves but I’ve come to the conclusion that they really don’t. The message I keep getting is “why don’t you just try to be normal?” How is that being myself when “normal” means being like everyone else? I’m not asking everyone else to be like me. I do not want to convert anyone. Just accept me for who I am.
The question of religion always comes up:
Question: Do you go to church?
Q: Why don’t you go to church?
A: I don’t believe in religion.
Statement: I’m looking for a God fearing woman.
Me: Why should I fear God?
Q: Why don’t you fear God?
A: I respect the Universe and the natural world.
Q: Don’t you believe in God?
A: I don’t believe there is any one man, woman or thing that is omnipotent. I believe we should take care of the universe and each other to allow the natural order of things to continue. You do not have to believe what I believe.
Q: Do you believe in heaven and hell?
A: No, I don’t. We all carry good and evil inside of us and choose to follow one or the other.
I once had someone say to me. “Can’t you just go to church even though you don’t believe?”
Me: No, I won’t go to church just because. I’m not a hypocrite. I want to be true to myself.
My response: You go to church and you don’t live by the teaching of your church.
Their reply: I ask for forgiveness. So aren’t the most important questions; What kind of person I am? How do I treat others? Am I kind etc., etc.,?
I grew up christian but I’ve changed my mindset and I’m finding it difficult to stay in a relationship where my point of view is dismissed or trivialized as a passing fancy. I will hold out for understanding or continue this life journey solo. I’ve had my share of relationships some good, some bad, some indifferent. I’ve learned enough from them to know “to thine own self be true.” I’m not trying to debate anyone nor change anyone’s mind about what they believe. However, I will not go along with the status quo just to say I’m in a relationship and half of a couple.
Excerpt from post that I highly agree with “The only problem with off the grid living is that corporations lose their ability to control others. With a completely self-sustaining life style, no body would ever have to work. What would happen then? Think about that for a moment. We would be free to expand and create, to discover our full potential as a race and move forward into the world of exploration and discovery, all the while living in harmony with nature, not against it.”
My opinion: I’m not surprised. Self sufficiency is not encouraged because if you are self-sufficient you cannot be controlled. Keep everyone dependent on the system/grid. Pay them minimum wage and then charge them up the yin yang for everything. Modern day slavery at it’s best. Some states have already made it illegal to collect/harvest rain water. Trying to make everyone cogs in a wheel.
The life she has always wanted is hers for the taking. However there is an invisible string drawing her back to the life she wants to leave behind. Even as she basks in the freedom of having her time all to herself the string keeps tugging at her head, heart, and soul.
Sometimes she wishes she could just fully disengage but she doesn’t want to hurt anyones feelings. She hears what they are not saying. The faint sound of abandonment in their voices. She feels so disconnected from that world which wants to keep dragging her back into its fold with its promises of love, comfort, and stability.
Every time she goes back it gets harder and harder to fit in. She seems to thrive on her own yet she allows the voices to tell her “you are needed please come back.” Then restlessness ensues. She is like a sailor without a boat. She gives in to the obligation that she feels, only to feel the string tightening around her neck like a noose. She should not hold herself responsible for other Peoples happiness yet she does.
If someone had said to me in January of this year that I’d be stationary for the remainder of the year I’d have laughed at them. However, here it is July 2014 and I’m grounded. I’ve planted a garden (already started reaping a harvest) and picking out furniture. I haven’t stopped traveling, I just won’t be doing any long-term traveling in the near future. My new goal is to start back long-term travel again in 2016. I do not have a crystal ball and I have no idea if this plan will change again but I believe in having a plan even though it may need to be adjusted every now and then.