Today I watched dozens of videos telling me how easy it is to make anywhere from $100 to $5000 a day. I felt like a fish out of water swimming against the tide. I still haven’t figured out how to properly navigate around this blog if I’m being honest. They make it seem so easy with the graphs and charts bouncing around the screen, moving the cursor around and around, and up and down. Clicking here and clicking there. Dragging here and dragging there. Why is it so difficult for me to get a hang of technology? I’m open to learning but it all just seems too much. There are so many moving parts. So many details. So many steps.
I feel like I’m drowning. I’ve put on my diving gear but somehow it has malfunctioned and I’m somewhere close to the ocean floor running out of oxygen. I know I should probably resurface but the lure of what’s down there is so fascinating, I’m transfixed. Feeling like I need to sacrifice my last breath to take everything in because this might be my last dive. There will never be another chance because everyday it’s a different ocean.